After being hospitalized for her treatment for around four months, the star revealed how she dealt with unresolved trauma.
While sharing her experience, her entire journey emerged in front of her eyes. She believed that she was about to die as there was no ray of hope.
She had undergone chest pain, shortage of breadth and was scared of death. She said, “I was experiencing terror. I had no idea why I was sobbing or what was going through my body and mind”. In her first interview with PEOPLE since being sent to the hospital following a panic attack in September, she says, “I have reached my lowest point now.”
Sitting in the living room of a friend’s Newport Beach house, she adds with teary eyes, “I was dying of depression”. Added further, “As my life was coming to an end, I descended into madness. I believed that my strength to survive has come to an end”.
At the age of 18, she became the star playing on the reality series Girls Next Door as one of Hugh Hefner’s girlfriends. It has been 20 years since then.
It’s difficult to go back to my twenties again. A week after visiting the ER on September 6, 38-year-old Wilkinson says, “I’ve had to face ups and downs.” and at that time her ex-husband, former NFL star Hank Baskett, was at her side.
Wilkinson started going to UCLA three times a week for outpatient treatment after her hospital stays, where trained specialists help her to get out of trauma.
“I’ve never been happier than when I was there. I thought I had nowhere to go. I was unable to see beyond my sadness,” Wilkinson recalls, adding that she had been having trouble making a new beginning in the real estate industry.
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She continued to feel ashamed of her breakup with Baskett and spent most of her days lonely. Wilkinson claims that despite having the support of her two children, Hank IV, 14, and Alijah Mary, 9.